flower island and floating market

so, i have 4 days free !! dan temen temen ngajakin ke pulau kembang dan jalan jalan ke pasar terapung. it was nice and fun !!

love ya ! xo

you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness

Gotye featuring Kimbra. somebody that i used yo know

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

Lately lagi suka dengerin lagu ini, selain liriknya bagus, warna musiknya juga beda dan asik aja didengerin. gak heran udah berminggu minggu gak turun juga dri Billboard chart. 

anyways, happy birthday to my brother Muhammad Hanifan Darmawan yang ke 16. long life and live your life to the fullest bro !! i miss my family. juni please come faster !!

oke, this week was a very fluctuating week  for me. so much tension, thypoid thing that blown me out, up and down mood, and other things. i almost feel like a dynamite. i can explode anytime. untungnya saya dikelilingin temen temen yang selalu punya kata kata dan kelakuan yang bikin saya ngakak. i just can't believe i have you guys. 

they took me to the waterboom, they invited me to study together, they throwed to me some silly jokes only us to know, they made me laugh so hard. 

keep on fire guys. solidarity forever ! 

love ya ! xo

once again, love ya ! xo

so much grown up

saya . udah. 20 . taun .


udah tante tante belum sih ? tapi kan sifat saya masih chibi chibi gitu. iya, saya ngalamin yang namanya sindrom gamau di bilang tua. saya udah mulai malu malu gitu kalo ditanya umur. merasa gak pas aja sama kepribadian saya yang belum mencerminkan mbak mbak umur 20 taun yang harusnya uda mandiri, smart, different and being the  best.


saya mah jauh dari itu. kekunci di kontrakan aja masih nangis.


seharusnya saya introspeksi ya. saya harus meperdalam ilmu saya di usia segini. harusnya saya uda ngerti yaaa 3/4 dari ilmu kehidupan. ilmu agama, ilmu menghormati orangtua dan keluarga, ilmu menyayangi teman, ilmu menjauhkan penyakit hati, ilmu kedokteran juga tentunya. ilmu saya sampe saat ini masih kurang banget.


dan beda dari perayaan ulang tahun saya yg kemaren kemaren, ulang tahun saya yang sekarang adem ayem aja. anehnya, justru ini yang saya harapkan. menuju kedewasaan bukannya harus dimaknai dengan hura hura. karena buat saya, menuju kedewasaan tuh, bukan sesuatu yang patut dirayakan dengan kegembiraan. karen menuju dewasa adalah proses yang oh-hell-no. banyak tanggung jawab yang musti dipikul dan, ada tanggung jawab sosial yang harus dipikul, supaya orang pas ngeliat kita, wihh mbaknya uda 20 tahun, pantesan tambah anggun dan dewasa. tsaahhh itu yang asoyy..


anyway, thanks to you guys yang udah ngucapin, makasih udah inget sama saya. semoga doa doa kalian terwujud :) i owe you guys !!


and my familyyyyy !!!! yang tambah konyol, terutama papa yang ngasih saya foto anak kura kura yang baru muncul di dunia beberapa hari yang lalu sebagai kado ulang tahun saya. papa saya nyebur aja gitu ke kolam buat motoin si anak kura kura ini. thanks dad. sukses buat Mamuju nya, semoga Alloh memberikan yang terbaik bagi kita sekeluarga. aminn..


dan saya bertekad, sejak umur 20 taun ini, saya bakal sering makai wedges dan high heels !! big thing starts from little things kan..

xo ! still loving me !

people are dynamic

so now i rent a house in Banjarmasin with 4 other classmates. we call it the green house. not just because it painted green but also because green are identical with medical, doctor, and other health things. 


siapa siapa aja yang menghuni green house dan gimana cerita kami selama di sini bakal saya post ntar ntar aja. yang jelas saya gak pernah berhenti ketawa selama di sini.


here's photos from 6th anniversary nya Kiyul sama Abay..

xo !

we're not just a classmates, we are family

sometimes we welcoming someone stranger as our family. we just had some kind of feeling that there is a connection between us and the stranger. as time goes by, we get to know the stranger, and become partner. and the chemistry become stronger. understand each other, be honest to each other and help each other. that's what i call family outside family. they could be our friends. friends around us that we met everyday, they could know you better than yourself. 

itu adalah perasaan saya sama temen temen saya di FK Universitas Lambung Mangkurat angkatan 2010. kita yang cuma satu kelas ini, yang cuma 91 orang ini, dengan segala kelebihan dan kekurangannya mampu tetep bersama sampe semester 4 ini. 

di angkatan yang banyak suka dukanya ini i learned lots of things about life. banyak ketawa ketawa sedih sedih dan galau galau yang mewarnai hidup kami. pokoknya i guess we're the best !

kok jadi agak mewek gini ya.. the point is, i love you guys !!!!! muuah !

see ? i have pretty big family !